Funny how the suggestions of spiritual endeavor are limned with revision and reserve and yet the whole point of that endeavor is to actualize a life without revision or reserve.
Isn't that what people long to escape -- a life that is continually operating at 95% ... forever holding something back while this moment and the next comes and goes full tilt ... complete and delicious and ungraspable?
You can't just do anything you want if you want to be happy. You can't make a profession out of not-doing what you want if you want to be happy. The way, on its face, seems impossible.
Do it anyway.